Hatsudate… really I just need to spend time on this
Tankokai, the ever-present problem
Will my tailbone recover in time?
Will the crash pads arrive in time?
Can I return the pair that doesn’t fit?
Will they even be good enough?
Will Kristina’s bindings stay on, or will that screw keep getting loose? (Maybe we should get a pocket screwdriver)
Now that I’m getting more sleep (lol, like 6.5 hours counts as “more”), am I going to continue to sleep well? Or will the lack of total exhaustion like before let me lapse back into insomnia?
Gratitude Journal
Grateful that I can do this stuff on my work laptop (obsidian, anki)
Grateful that I figured out the sentence mining stuff. I feel like I have something pretty sustainable moving forward here. Bit of a bummer that morphman doesn’t seem to work, but that’s okay.
Very happy that my tailbone seems to be healing up! Definitely not 100% but much better
Happy to have a problem that engrosses me at work
Overall I just feel like things are going very well. Grateful for that.
Distortive thoughts exercise
Distortive thoughts
Category
More accurate thoughts
If I don’t get enough sleep, I’ll be unproductive at work. (And the thoughts that follow are usually around getting promoted, getting fired… etc).
Catastrophic thinking
These last two weeks have shown me that I can be really productive on little sleep. Even as little as 6 hours is enough to be pretty good. And you’re not going to get fired.
Something is wrong with me and the way I think about sleep. I just can’t fall asleep quickly.
Poor labeling
You used to be able to fall asleep quickly! Don’t forget about those fitbit logs from before. And you’re already improving from this course to be a good sleeper.
I need way more sleep than other people just to feel okay.
Should statements
These last two weeks have shown that maybe I don’t actually need that much sleep. 6.5 hours somehow feels okay. 7 or 7.5 hours may be perfect.
If I wake up in the middle of the night, my sleep is ruined.
Fortune telling
If I wake up in the middle of the night, then I can try to fall back asleep. And if I can’t, then I still know that I’ll wake up feeling groggy but perfectly alright.
I’m horribly light-sensitive. Any light peeking through the curtains will wake me up.
Poor labeling
That may be true, may not. But if it does wake me up, I can just close my eyes and fall back asleep. Somehow I feel like this training though is helping me be less of a light sleeper.
I can’t fall asleep unless the conditions are perfect.
Poor labeling
I’ve fallen asleep on concrete before. I know I can fall asleep in different places.